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My dearest, beautiful, cute, attractive, addictive Ola,



Karena aku mencintaimu, maka aku mencintainya. Karena aku menginginkanmu, maka aku memilihnya. Kulihat dirimu di dia. Versi dirimu yang kurindukan, yang kuinginkan.

You're always be my sunshine after the rain. You will always be missed. And you know that I will be here for you anytime you ask. I will hold your hand, and walk with you. Coz you know I love you and I will always do. She could never take your place, she knows that. She has to deal with that. But I shut the memory of you down. If I remember your smile, then I will smile at her. When I remember the way we have endless and countless conversations, I will try to take to her to the streets we used to walk. I will find you in her. This is not be the best solutions for long term, but for now, this is what I need. To see you in her.

I am sorry. Let us be a better version of ourselves. If God's plan is the best, then it's time to let you go. To spread your wings and you might be find someone else, better than me, cooler than me. More attractive, good looking, nicer than me. I know that kind of someone exists.

I could never not love you. But I have to be a man you wanted.  A man who knows what he wants and fight for it. I choose her over you, not because you're not there. I chose her because I know I am calmer when I am with her.

You're a dream. Too beautiful to hold on to. You're the nicest dream I have. I will rewind you anytime I wanted to. It's my rights, right?

I love you, La. And that's why I choose to stay with her. I can be a man of my word.





Elang.